Monday, January 14

i chose y o u

do you know about those times, when we really regret some of the things we did and wished that time would just rewind itself, just so we could do things a different way? well, there is this situation or more like a series of situations which i really would approach differently, given the chance again. i was tactless, juvenile and stubborn, and i really cant believe it because i really was being exactly like a person who i used to 'hate', and yes, i do realise this also makes me a hypocrite. i believe that life is all about a balance..for everything we do, there usually is a balance to uphold. for instance, i have become a very rational person when it comes to matters of my <3, i may come off as indifferent, heartless and almost incapable of believing in love. but the truth remains that i do. my mistake comes from over-emphasising the former, and misleading the one person who i unknowingly, have given a small piece of my <3 color="#333399">some important things that need to be defended as well.
i was selfish and protective of my own feelings, and ended up with the cold, hard realisation of the truth that i have been denying all along. so, it goes to show, i have become very averse to spontaneity and taking risks and unable to live my life as it is...
but most importantly, i wished i told you before, that i chose you, but i knew actions are stronger than words, and i thought i would show you in time. i would choose you.

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