happpiee happiee new year 2008 to all~~~!!

anyways, i've been thinking again (when i know i really shouldn't be), and i realised just how i have been pretty tactless in terms of giving advice when i should just let nature run its own due course. well, i wont give any excuses for my insensitivity, but hope that i remember this lesson and not repeat my mistakes again. and although i know, the decision is not one which i changed alone, i still carry that guilt as i know i have done wrong, regardless of how much it had inspired the outcome. *sighs*

its been a year and a half since i was last in a relationship...hrmms..and yes, i have enjoyed my singledom and gotten accustomed to the relatively new concept of being happy even without a significant other. during this time, i have liked and gone on dates, but when there is an even the slightest hint of an expectation of a relationship, i have panicked and turned to run in the opposite direction. i have been extremely cautious in most circumstances involving my <3 ...coz i have too many fears. fear that my standards are not met, fear that i will go too fast and not know the person well enough b4 i fall in love, the fear that i will revert or fail to be a good girlfriend. . .the fear of letting my own self down. but its really time to let go of these fears, because life is only half-lived if we continue to live in doubt and worry about things that may never eventuate~