.beneaththestarrz.: where do i go from here? . . .

Thursday, November 8

where do i go from here? . . .

eheheh...like *someone* commented..my blog has been collecting quite a fair bit of cobwebs recently;) but hey, i did manage to create a high level of anticipation for my current *comeback* post, rite? ahahahah...okaii..maybe not~

well, i've been thinking...okaii, no i haven't, i have been seriously studying my bee-hind off..and i mean, seriously going to the library on a Saturday and Sunday (how incredibly unholy is that? - not so much becoz i'm Christian - which i am not - but cozz its just soo....paranormal), and so what if sze shih and i were talking most of the time & totally drove eza crazzyy with our inability to focus on studying..heheh~ it waz funn, and i'm going to miss it~ *sighs* and now, all my exams are finally over..im unofficially not a student anymore..~ well, i keep saying it..but, deep down, i dont want to let it fully sink in yet....for a few reasons;

there is the possibility i havent quite made it yet...due to the 2 NP's i had during my past 4 years of study.. ><"
i'm also in denial. i'm not quite ready to face the responsibilities of finding a job, supporting myself and making choices that define my future. yet. and yes, i'm not sure when i will be ready...err...wait..do i even have a choice here?? hahahah.....okaii okaii, i guess i'm just being a whiner and totally baby-ish about this..eeks! and i think i even got abit hypocritical. i feared the choices i have to make now...and i just posted that quote~ on kenny's blog >.<"

hrmmss..well, its time to start looking for a permanent job, i guess....one that will take me places, literally... (hahah...okaii, im dreaming still..)~

anyways, its reaaally late now..and i need to zzzzz~~ so more updatess, later..good nitezz for now~ xOxO~

1 comment:

Shiawase said...: it is okay to feel lost, methinks. you will be starting a new field, after all, and you are but one tiny little fish in a big big pond.

ever play insaniquarium?

you'll be fine.; 2:19 PM

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a whimsical, closeted-romantic 24-year old living in the city of Melbourne.
a few of my ♥'s apart from my beloved family include fair weather days, yummmy thai food, gorgeous shoes, slightly melancholic songs, the X'mas holiday season!, scary movies and good ice cream!

despite my constant pondering and fair vocabulary, i used to censor my blog, at the risk of it sounding too cliched or some people mistaking me as needing it as a tool for self-validation.
but as time passed, i realised i no longer fear such judgement, as it is better to have done and be judged than to never have been judged at all;)

1st of all, i'd like to give credit to my magnificent parents; my incredible workaholic Daddydearest + my endearing Mummysweetest for always, always, always believing in me, offering comfort & granting me the space when it has been duly needed, and giving me endless opportunities that enable me to strive to be the best person i can be today, and most of all, for their unconditional ♥. Thank you so much, and this is to make up for all the times I have failed to say so.