hrmms...for what it's worth (and i realise, it's not Mother's day for another few months or so..), I really love my Mum.
for those who know me, I am not particularly close to my Mum, as in I do not have the ritual of calling them every once, or even few times, a week to talk about everything under the sun. Nope, that's just not me. Just ask my Mum, she is always grumbling about what a lousy clinger I am.
However, today, as I was checking out my lil' sister's page on Facebook, I came across a particular photo, with a familliar person with her back facing the camera in the background. Instantly, I recognised the navy oversized jumper and auburn bob. I could even picture in my head, her very delicate and long fingers brushing the material of the clothes she was browsing. Maybe she was wearing her rings, maybe not. I felt a rush of emotion as I remember her voice, when she was doing something calm, like folding the clothes or just winding down after a long day. Days like those, when she was the intelligent, bright and tactful woman who everyone wished their mum was like. I envisioned my mum sowing my loose buttons or hemming my trousers which were always too long for me, wrapping my schoolbooks before the start of the new term....I also realised the frailty of my mum, how she had positively zilch sense of direction, and her keen sense of worry. Makes me worry for her....
I know, I initially didn't want to go on another holiday with the family, but then, ahhh.....screw that part!

Happy Neeeuuuu Year!

as i listen to this song again, i feel all the feelings of hurt and pain seep back in slowly...
of course, it's different this time, because time has dulled the edges of these emotions. it is of little significance, many other different memories have taken precedence over that memory of you.
now, i just relish that slight melancholy which provides a distraction to my more recent wound.

Happy New Year 2010!

like i said before , I dont really believe in New year resolutions, but if I had to pick, it would be to improve my EQ, IQ (virtually unlikely) and to become an overall stronger person. Oh yeah, and get RICH too! hahahah...yep...enjoy the year ahead, everyone! Its gonna b another heck of an awesome one;)