lessons~

there is exactly 6 days left till my first exam~ and, no, im not working tonite, i'm going clubbing instead...hahahah. yes, everyone may think i am crazy rite about now, but hey, i know what i need to do, and thank god, now, i dont need to justify it to anyone else but myself now [sorry, mum & dad~ but i still love u~ hahah..]

anyways, like i blogged about b4, i had 'lost my way' during the past week, but im gradually finding my way back on track again~ thanxx to some advice and support from my best frends, who i had left in the dark during that time...~~ and i realised that they are going through similar but their own, dilemmas as well, some quite similar to mine, some are not..but anyways, i know, that they have equally tough decisions to make and deal with, as i have.

i learnt a few things this week;

• nothing is as 'perfect' as it really seems,
• this loneliness i felt, is more common and perfectly normal that i thought it was, but all i needed to do was to reach out to my frends..~
• don't be afraid of or fight change - embrace it and learn to adapt to it,
• never say 'never', becoz we cant predict the future, and we shouldnt limit our scope on living life..~
• and most importantly, always have hope. becoz that's what makes life worth living for.

well, that brings me to the end of the post, good luckzz to everyone having examss! or assignments due soon~~ and study hard, work hard and play hard too~! xOxO~

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"do not be afraid of life; believe that life is worth living, and your belief
will help create the fact"

the week everything went . . .

this will be a long post, so brace yourselves~ ^^

so, it has been a long, long week 12, the week when three of my final assignments are due...ECC2890's 3000 word group essay on the economic development of Hong Kong on Wednesday, followed by INT3015's semester essay on the impacts of Globalisation on the World Environment, and EUR3080's 2nd essay on Sovereignty in Europe on Friday. of course, i just had to procastinate till the very last days, and only (barely) finished them before the deadline, all except for EUR3080, which i only completed last nite, after getting an extension for it..gosh..i was just so super stressedd over them, i was sleepless in the mornings..for the past week or so, i have been waking up at 7-ish in the morning, and be unable to fall back asleep again - regardless of the time i would go to bed the nite b4.. it is a weird kind of insomnia, that i wake up so early in the morning, but painful nonetheless..on the plus side, looking like a panda meant that i had an excuse to borrow jamie's shades and wear them virtually everywhere (even in the library~ to my group meeting) *lolzz*

other than that, happiee, happiieee belated birthdayy to my upstairs neigbour and good frend, Bryan~~~!! who celebrated his bday on the 9th of October~

so sorry, the surprise was a complete disaster >.<" believe me, if i knew u had no clue, we would have been sitting in the bathroom blowing balloons for the surprise for much longer than that...lolx

and yay~ i got paid this week, for the 24 and a half hours i worked last week~~ only to find something reaally weird was going on with my taxed amount; $94!~~ oh my goshh...is that even possible that my taxx rate is likee, 23%!!?? so weirrdd...

hrmss..it also looks like i will be wearing my contacts most of this week, as i have been a klutz again, and broken my own glasses >.< color="#ff6666">red-framed glasses.. *sighs* now, i have to wait for them, while they are being fixed..~

anyways, this week has been a really tough one for me as can be seen from my gloomy MSN nicks, these past few times...and i admit to having a *mini-breakdown* in the middle of this week..when, i was just freaking out over what little time left i had to do everything. but, it was all my own doing for not starting my own assignments earlier. but this panic attack made me realise, i cant handle as much as i thought i could b4....which did lower my confidence alot during the last week. but, dunt worry, i have thought about it..and this being a new week, i have a chance to start again..a chance to not make the same mistakes again, and hope i stick with it~^^
ohs yeahh, and well, i dun think my secret ♥ is just that into me after all, & yes, of course i'm broken.♥'d...but as i know what i'm worth, this wont take long to get over;)

xOxO~

the joy of graduation~

Congratulations to jun & yingying deares on graduating from Ba. of Commerce (Management) and Ba. of Commerce (Accounting and Finance) respectively, today~~!! for the past few years, i've noticed the fresh graduates clothed in their thick black capes with the silky colorful ribbons, but never realised, till today, how significant or momentous an occasion, graduation really is. and, its totally cheesy and all..but i can't help but feel so happy for them~ that they have officially completed their degree and are moving on to another 'step' in life...~ and, i wish them only the bestt in everything else they do~~

me + jun; congratzz sweetie~!!

hrmm...well, i started working again @ Magic City...guess, the job is alrite...its a better place than Oriental Tea House, classier and more sophisticated, the people are pretty nice~~ and the food is reeeeallyy yuumm~ its like the 'Camberwell branch of Longrain'~ but...i do miss everyone at OTH. i worked the past two nites, but it was just eardley and me in the restaurant. and, of course, eardley is super nice...but, i really reaally miss having other ppl around...~ can't wait till every1 else starts work too..^^

anyways, im so super tired...and i really don't need to look like a panda, despite them being one of my favourite animals..~ ><

happpiee, happiiee 21st, ashiq~~!!

firstly, happiie happieee 21st birthday to ~ ashiq~!! one of my treasured besties since high school~ almost 8 yearss of friendship~ ehheheh..hope ure having a 'smashing' time @ Nottingham now~! hope to see you really soon;)

today marks the last day of my last university holidayss ever..since its probably working life for me after this semester. oh, but then again, life is oh-so-unpredictable...and i have accepted the fact that nothing ever goes the way we imagined it would~ *wistful*

today also is my first day at a new job for me~~ wheee.....~!! finally, something that can keep me occupied, and take my mind of my idle-ness and constant slacking-off...one of the bad things about it is, its in the suburbs, and this time, not even on the way to uni...=[ well, at least, eardley will be there..~ and i wont be completely alone..and the pay is better than the previous one~ so, its a good, natural progression, i suppose..^^ yayzz~

well, my past week of uni holidays have been a blast~~ here are the highlights;

Sunday: Road trip to Mornington Peninsula with cay vian, hui san, keith, soon shin~

hui san + cay vian + myself @ the unicorn fountain @ Ashcombe maze

under the blue sky, our fingers were starr-crossed x.x

summer is almost here. all i need is the sun and friends like mine~

our group picture @ London Bridge (Mornington)
soon shin - cayvian - jasmine - hui san - keith

and it felt just like home; @ Janice's seaview home~ where we stayed in Mornington.

Janice's awesome house @ Rosebud~

oops...just realised i have to cut this post short as i still need to do more 'homework' b4 i go to work..~ will post more pics the next time...oh, and its a pity, i didnt manage to go to the Royal Melbourne show after all, this year....really wanted to get another fluffy unicorn again! *sighs* guess there is always next year...~ ttfnz

black is back.

in my first post, i was supposed to explain that my choice of the black background, instead of the typical white one was not accidental, nor was it purely for design purposes (although that may provide the second reason). it was on finding out in my INT3015; unit about Globalisation, that the darker colored screen require less energy to light up computer screens, and thus, is my small contribution towards energy-saving and the environment~ >.<
anyways, i have finally brought myself out of my own 'rut'...after staying home practically, for the past two weekends, i have decided to go out instead of just laying about at home, and trying to seem so available. well, the truth is, i am bored of being too available..gosh..and, i really need to find my darn planner~ becoz im seriously lost without it..*miserable*
hrmmss...i seem to have bloggers' bloc everytime i sit in front of my screen, and seem to have the most to think about whilst on the train ride home from uni...oh wells..nothing really significant is happening anyways~

har har har...as im blogging, i'm chatting with my ex-Maplestory net frend, Ian..it sounds childish and weird, but hey, Ian is a good guy, k! albeit the tendency of bullying me most of the time! so, yeah, he is teasing me about my secret ♥, yes, thats what ill call him now; my secret ♥
anyways, i don't think my secret ♥ has a clue, and i'm too afraid to be too obvious..i mean, yeah, if not how is he gonna know? well, he has to want to find out then!~~ hahahah...
anyways, had lunch with ashley and bryan yesterday...and i haven't seen nor catched up with ash for the longest time, and we were just talking about how being in a relationship changes everything...how we base our decisions, and etc. more often not, love comes in the way of pursuit of our finest dreams...ambitions to travel the world, or work overseas are forgone, in the name of love. this is the reality of love, and i know it happens. but i wonder, if love is really strong, shouldn't it encourage our very dreams?
hrmms...anyways, happieee happiieee 21st birthday to Adlil~~~!!

attempt #540926

on an eventless, morose Sunday such as today, I shall make another attempt to keep yet, another blog~ this one previously went on an uber-long hiatus, and is replaced with this one...

anyhow, i shall begin this entry on a very sad note; the marker of the end of both Mercedes-Benz FashionWeek NYC Spring 2008, and also Motorola Melbourne Spring Fashion Week....

and here are some of the looks i liked (from NYC);

simple sweet dress in basic white and black from designer doo ri's Spring 2008 collection~

loving this androgynous ensemble from alexander wang spring '08 collection

[little known fact about myself: I know and, even care, when Fashion Week is]

anyways, another weekend has flown by...and i feel a certain emptiness starting to overwhelm me. perhaps, it is loneliness...as i realise, i have been pushing those closest to me further away..and i can't pinpoint the exact reason why i do it. hrmms...

all this pondering is not doing any good...especially when i should be making the most of my time here, as i still haven't made the decision to stay or leave after graduation yet...its getting late~ will post more later..~