.beneaththestarrz.: p.s. i dont want to love you

Sunday, December 30

p.s. i dont want to love you

just came home from watching P.S. I love you with pei wen, bryan and ethan~ it was a really sweet movie adapted from a book by Cecilia Ahern, about a husband who passes away and has left a plan of things to do for his widow (Hilary Swank)..*sigh* it was just a really touching and true-to-life story, which really depicts what so many people experience - coming to terms with the loss of their significant other~
watching this movie reminded myself of that feeling of being in a relationship.....and to be completely honest, im pretty da^% scared of going thru' those notions again. the helplessness of falling in love with someone. the fear of making mistakes or losing the person's love, the disappointment from having such high expectations from the person we love, and so many other sensations that i have become fairly immune to...
some people say it is good to venture and find the right one...but i really wonder, just how many times can a <3 be broken, for the sake of searching for the perfect one?

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p r o l o g u e

a whimsical, closeted-romantic 24-year old living in the city of Melbourne.
a few of my ♥'s apart from my beloved family include fair weather days, yummmy thai food, gorgeous shoes, slightly melancholic songs, the X'mas holiday season!, scary movies and good ice cream!

despite my constant pondering and fair vocabulary, i used to censor my blog, at the risk of it sounding too cliched or some people mistaking me as needing it as a tool for self-validation.
but as time passed, i realised i no longer fear such judgement, as it is better to have done and be judged than to never have been judged at all;)

1st of all, i'd like to give credit to my magnificent parents; my incredible workaholic Daddydearest + my endearing Mummysweetest for always, always, always believing in me, offering comfort & granting me the space when it has been duly needed, and giving me endless opportunities that enable me to strive to be the best person i can be today, and most of all, for their unconditional ♥. Thank you so much, and this is to make up for all the times I have failed to say so.